little-blue-lily:

He quietly slid from time.

there’s not a single day I don’t think about how unfair life (death) was for noah czerny. I get unreasonably sad thinking about how it ended for him. it had to, because not-living wasn’t enough, and he ceased to exist because there was none of him left.

in trb when they buried his bones in the churchyard, I was happy, because I thought that meant he would stop decaying and would get to “live” normally.

then in tdt, when kavinsky was gone and adam was beginning to unblock the ley line paths. still not enough.

in the beginning of trk, when gwenllian calls him a coward and he shows blue his decaying form, was so tragic. I thought noah would recover somehow, that we’d see more of alive!noah, that he would be himself and would be more again.

throughout the books, how living noah seemed at times always really struck me. I thought they would save him, somehow, and make his existence more real.

I didn’t want to face the facts - noah was already dead, beyond repair. that whatever he was when he was living no longer existed; there was no saving him, and it’s still heartbreaking for me to think that noah czerny never had a chance.